You’ve Climbed a Mountain

Recently, I have been following my root interests and reading books on psychology, self-help and philosophy. Discussing my discoveries with my husband, connections between how I have lived my life, survived with a neurological disease and what I love to research in life have been sprouting everywhere.

When my journey started, I was an active, spirited  eleven year old. What I thought I was following had to be halted and readjusted. Uncertainty clouded the atmosphere but something told me I shouldn’t believe in whatever I am told. It could be dangerous for me to live like others but my curiosity motivated me to find out for myself.

With an intrigue in spirituality and a curiosity of how the mind works, I aspired to model a samurai. I was not needed to fight physically or join a war for a cause but I did have daily battles that tested my loyalty, integrity and courage. I made God into my master and concentrated on working with what I was given without coming away from core principles. I hadn't realized that my practices were mirroring the practices that exist in the world. 

At the time,  I figured that I had to find a way of dealing with my circumstances while becoming who I wanted to be (there was no set image) and so I tried whatever I could with whatever information I found and did my best to stick to what mattered to me. I never felt like I could know what would happen. I figured that was life and that I had to make choices that aligned with me. I never received a confirmation that I accomplished anything by any standards but I continued trying, one step or issue at a time. 

As I reflect on my life and study different theories in detail, I am pleased to realize that in choosing to follow and learn something I believe in and connect to, I have come to an understanding of the content and can know when I trained it. I may not possess a proof of my education but I gladly look back and notice the mountain I quietly climbed and survived. It was worth every discovery, opposition and development. Life is a wondrous adventure that continues on and offers new heights.