Never Had a Dream Come True
Throughout my healing journey, I've had instances of song lyrics popping into my head and encouraging me to find more meaning. In one of my deeper phases, I heard ‘I never had a dream come true’. At the time, I was doing my best to reconcile my past and this lyric confused me. I had just started seeing how my past shaped me, why would this line (that felt negative on its own) be playing for me? It took a while to find this song that I didn’t recognize and a lot of repetitive listening for the message to make sense.
This song brought me back to my soul's desire. I wanted to live while listening to my soul. My ‘baby’ became Tommy (what I called my brain tumor that caused seizures). Suddenly, I realized, Yes, my dreams did come true! My life with Tommy gave me that! No wonder I couldn't discard my past, even though I tried to. I couldn't let that time be forgotten because it was vital to my life and who I am. It wasn't being normal or having a career that was my core desire, it was living in harmony with my body and soul. To forget the journey would be to forget myself.
This realization is what I continuously turn to as I start new paths in my life. It’s beautiful to realize that we travel the path we asked for without knowing that it is the one, only our judgment prevents us from recognizing it. Coming away from thought to hear what speaks to us helps the truth be revealed. We can never let go of who we are, even if our mind tells us that we must. We need to feel our heart's consent to know if it's true.
Lyrics to Never Had a Dream Come True by S Club 7:
Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back, or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or might've been (or might've been)
All this I know
But still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (found the words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it should be now or might've been (or might've been)
All this I know
But, still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (never found the words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes, you will
Say you will
You know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing (and funny thing)
No matter how hard I try and try
I just can't say good bye
No, no, no, no
I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (never found the words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you, ooh
