Looking for the Right in What Feels Wrong
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Have you ever thought that what you were doing was absolutely the right way? Were you able to back up your conviction with knowledge and, what seemed at the time, flawless plans? Did that ‘perfect’ plan ever take a sharp turn in its path unexpectedly and prove you wrong?
Admittedly, this happened to me a lot when I was a teenager. I thought I was supposed to prove myself (or who I was becoming) and that facts, sounding knowledgeable and having flawless plans were the way to accomplish that. Life taught me that those were not the solutions and showed me that I didn't actually know by changing things for myself. A weather forecast I didn't expect, a stranger showing up or a seizure to alter perfection and suddenly, what I thought was right appeared completely wrong! It would have been easy to blame myself for not being good enough but it wasn't fair to disregard all my hard planning. I could've blamed my annoying seizure disability but what fun in learning would I gain out of that? I could've believed that Life was against me but I chose to wonder if Life was speaking to me. What if I wasn't meant to do that right now? What if I was meant to go a different direction? What if I looked for meaning in what happened and worked from there? What if being proven ‘wrong’ is leading me to where I'm meant to be? Overall, maybe facts, knowledge and proving myself to others isn't the way for me to be myself. No matter what the outcome, life is continuing and there's more to explore and become.
For every time that Life sent unexpected turns, I knew that I was meant to come back to myself and re-examine everything to determine its meaning. I concluded that it's okay if I think I didn't get it right because getting it ‘wrong’ will help me to learn what I need to know. Being open to being wrong didn't mean that I didn't care or work on what I was doing, it meant that I would try my best, trust Life to lead and be ready to learn something new. When you get tired of fighting what you can't control, it's easier to listen by embracing it and letting it be. Without resistance, so much more is recognized and being right and wrong is part of what is becoming.
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